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oh my aching head

Just because it's raining, doesn't mean it has to pour. Sure, in the last few months my life has been a small chain of unfortunate events. Deployment, my laptop crashing, whatever is going on medically, my email being hacked... but things finally feel like they are smoothing out. Today I got my new laptop. Which means I can do what I want online, and the girls can finally have their computer back to play their games on.

It also means that I don't have to sit in the other room waiting for steven to sign on. I can have my laptop running right here beside me and catch him at anytime he manages to get online. Technology has become so important in this world, I can't believe it. I do not know how other generations handled waiting for hand written letters... this would have driven me crazy.

Dont get me wrong. I love sending out hand-written letters to him, quite often actually... but I do those to supplement the emails, IMs, and other ways of communication. I could never do only letters. That's just crazy talk. Besides, with as slow as the mail is out to those shitty  countries... he'd be home before I got a single one lol.


At any rate. The only thing that is slowing me down is all my physical down-falls right now. I have now been enjoying the increased heart rate and shortness of breath for a little over a month; the newer symptoms: nausea and dizziness, for the last 3, and the newest... a headache that is always just 1 smidgen short of a migraine that has been going on for nearly 2 days now... but the doctors do nothing, and I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. It is getting less fun by the second. I just don't know what to do anymore... 

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  1. MomJuly 18, 2012 at 9:25 PM

    Just need to hang on alittle while longer! Once I'm there you can sleep and rest all you need to. I know that doent help at all right now but, at least it will at some point! Before you know it...Ivan will be here, Steven will be here and everything will be WONDERFUL! Until then we need to be thankful for all the great things that we have everyday that we dont think much about. I know your feelin pretty crappy right now but, stop and look around...you have a house full of laughter, fighting,and screaming...in other words a house full of life and love!! Hang in there...you will feel better.
    Love you... :)

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    1. Mama ArtyJuly 18, 2012 at 9:38 PM

      fighting and screaming! hahhaa... You shoulda never left. I say you, dad, and harley just move in. that'd be tops.

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